the stillness of this new moon

so weird. this morning while I was outside, I noticed a stillness. a quietness - it is like the moon is resting and the earth along with it. Oh the birds were singing, the washing machine was going, clothes hanging in the sun, traffic noise in the background. BUT it was quiet. I found it quite comforting actually - like our earth was resting along with the moon, getting energy to cope with all that is happening out there. today I am cleaning and as I do, I am burning the samhain incense that Daisy sent me - with this stillness, it still feels like Samhain to me

I took a few dark moon photos of my garden and I believe that you can even sense the resting of the moon in them...

see how all the leaves are now falling - but, how odd is it that my gardenias are still blooming at this time of year - curiouser & curiouser.....

even the peace flags are still & notice all the leaves under my apple tree - I will rake these up over the weekend and put into my compost.....and even my vegie garden below is in resting mode - I am getting it ready to plant beetroot, onions and potatoes.

the dark moon this month

oh boy, as I have said before - this dark moon is affecting me more than ever. the past few months haven't been so bad I think that is because I was on a course of tissue salts following the moon's cycle - however, I forgot to keep it going and maybe this is why I am stumbling & reflective. I am not depressed nor am I melancholy and I do have alot to say - I just can't get it out - like whispers of fog that I just can't grasp.

the new moon for us down here, is Thursday 16th May at 5.35am. I cannot wait!

thankfully I have a few online friends who understand completely and they have been counselling me through it ~ as one of these friends said

"Sit tight...this will pass, like it has before. Each time, you emerge with a new take on things, don't fight it..let it happen."

yes, I will take that, looking back, it makes alot of sense to me -

so everybody - sit tight, by Friday I should be on my way to being normal.

a new moon, a new beginning

a new moon today - is there any better time to start anew? a time to let go of negative ways.....

I had to step back from blogging taking a little time away to think. over the past few months, blogging for me became a frenzied activity. I was hyperventilating, stressing and becoming sad - trying to visit blogs so that I wouldn't upset anyone.... and all the time, I was upsetting myself. I was not enjoying it at all....after much contemplation, I decided that I really do enjoy blogging - and I am going to try with all my might, to do it for me - no-one else.

of course I will still be blogging my thoughts and how I feel, but I think I will turn comments off for those posts as they are really just my thoughts that I need to get down...and what better place than here?

so with that said ~ today is a special day for me in many ways...it is my mum's birthday, my 19th wedding anniversary and today, 6 years ago I heard the words - 'Robyn, you have cancer'. I have decided that being a new moon I am starting anew with my attitude towards life. I was never a bitter person, ever, but just lately I have become more and more bitter towards what life has dealt me. And I am really not like that at all. Being human, I am sure I will stumble and fall but when I do, I am going to pick myself up, brush my knees off and get on with it. I will nurture myself of course. On those days that my 'cancer head' rears up, I will thank it for the experience and send it on its way. I must, otherwise I will end up a bitter old crone instead of the pixie-faery that I truly am.

Thursday things

Full moon coming up equals my present emotional state, I realized that after my posting last night. So now I know that I am affected by both the full and the new moons - in the days preceding them I become melancholy & lack confidence ~ it is honestly like a real weight on my shoulders...something I can't shake..... I know there are some wise women out there who know alot about Miss Moon - any ideas on how to cope or rituals that I can do to help - thanks muchly xo

Thursday, this afternoon equal art class for me. Lord knows what the teacher will think when I roll up with a blank canvas and my latest idea - using Amedeo Clemente Modigliani mixed with Picasso as inspiration and Mary as my model...hopefully I will be able to get this idea out of the bubble inside and onto the canvas....

my faery altar, candlemas and other stuff

create a fairy altar to honour the fairies and to ask for their protection. Your altar can be anywhere you wish - you can have more than one & you can have one outside, wherever you put it - it will be yours and reflect your personality.
You might like to cover it with some shimmery, glittering fabric. Or you might like to decorate it with crystals, candles, a faery wand or ornament - lots of glitter or you might want only natural objects - leaves, shells, stones, feathers & twigs. whatever reminds you of fairyland but remember the little folk do not like iron

I love Fridays - it is MY day. A day that I do whatever I wish to.

Candlemas day today. . But is it really Candlemas for me? Down here - it is supposed to be the harvest festival - Lammas. Of course, I am totally confused. However - I am going to have lots n lots of tealights burning for Candlemas and will probably celebrate Lammas on the weekend. There are no rules.

I read this on the internet last night and it made much sense to me.

I believe that pagans of yesteryear did not do rituals for their Sabbats and certainly not in any ceremonial way to which Gardner has it. He was a ceremonial magician and combined the Sabbat celebrations with ceremonial ritual which was performed when doing magick. I believe the pagans of yesteryear celebrated the Sabbats as a festival where people gathered and shared in the seasonal changes and not standing in some cast circle, calling in Quarters with athames flying and incense flowing. They might have simply performed some sort of celebration in their home in honor of that Sabbat. Many of the pagans were farmers and worked from sunrise to sunset. Their lives were just as busy in simply trying to survive as our lives are busy now.

HECATES CAULDRON

and today I am going to play. I am involved in an altered book swap - a one on one and I am obsessed with it. The ideas & creativity are pouring out, much like the rain outside (YAY!). as well as doing some pages for a chunky crow book swap that I am involved in as well. I can create anything when given a subject but if I have to come up with a subject - that is when I freeze up. I am thinking of joining our local artist community centre - they have classes at the moment in mixed media - it may give me some techniques and help me to loosen up.

In my mail box this week I had two pleasant surprises - a sweet set of faery cards from Pretty Lady & an ATC from Janet - it is gorgeous and will be put into my journal. thankyou so much to each of you. I am amazed at the constant love that is sent through the mail - it touches my heart xo

AND it is the FULL MOON ! shh - things are ok here right now, no lunatic episodes.....

this new moon

I am not an astrologer by any means - I do believe that the planets and solar system have a big influence on our lives - well mine anyhow. New moon - yep! and I am going through the usual stuff - the ditzyness, the worrying and the sadness BUT this time, I am working with it instead of fighting it - journalling it and arting it. I receive a moon letter each month and this morning was reading about the new moon in Capricorn this month :

it mentions that our mother earth has been a harsh parent lately & that global warming is threatening everything we know. also mentioned is that we are unaware of the many blessings that sit on our doorstep & we hold in our hands the capability to 'contribute' to our world.

and a little more:

we are asked to love and care for each other,for all time. To use this New Moon to commit ourselves to 'becoming responsible for your own enlightenment'

make your theme for 2007, one of love.

want to know more? :~

Lisa Dale Miller - astrowisdom - amazing!