"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."

Saturday, June 23, 2007

the solstice gift

last night, I opened my gift from Daisy. I sobbed and howled til I knew I had to take control of myself.
She had sent me a medieval garden book that she had promised me awhile back and tucked into a page titled "Mystic garden", was a note that said - "this sounds like our sort of garden, doesn't it?" - well , that set me off again. As did the string of blue butterflies & crystals that she sent to me to "hang above my bed" - there was a yule sabbat card, some yule incense and a package of glitter and fabric.
I am trying to be strong, but truly I can't - I can't stop thinking of her, I can't eat. I have chest pains..... I know eventually I will be at the end of this dark grief tunnel but right now, there ain't no light I can see........

9 comments:

Julie Marie said...

Robyn,


THIS TOO SHALL PASS

Thinking of you daily,

Julie

A bird in the hand said...

Being strong doesn't mean you don't weep and grieve. Being strong is acknowledging your feelings.

Love to you.
colette

Sue said...

Lighting a candle daily for you Robyn. Much love Sue xxx

Sheila said...

You will emerge from this a stronger person. You might not think so now, but that day will come.
sending big hugs
xx

Sacred Suzie said...

Oh great Goddess, a gift from the other side, how amazing and absolutely heart wrenching that much have been. I hope the howling and thrashing with the grief helped in some way but must be so hard for your sensitive soul to bear. Sending you a gentle and loving hug ~ Suzie

Gemma said...

Walking with you through this....

Peggy said...

Daisy has many tears being shed over her. I am sure she is watching over her special friends sending comforting messeages. What a blessing to have received a package from Daisy and a note to treasure

Blue the Spa Girl said...

How fortunate you are to have that final gift from your beloved friend. I know you will cherish it forever. Sending you light for your path, Robyn. It is hard to put into words exactly what I feel for you and your situation. Just know that sometimes words fail and I do feel for you!
xo

Carol said...

What wonderful gifts from a wonderful friend to cherish!*sigh*