"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

grieving, sifting and getting it out

I know oneday, I will wake up without the sense of loss, without this ache in my chest....
blogging my grieving process is good for me and comments help alot too
but don't feel like you have to comment while I go through the mourning process.

*daisy* and I emailed alot - sometimes 5 times a day and I have kept every single email she ever sent me... at the time I thought I was insane but I am so glad I did because somewhere in those emails is the answer to my grieving - you know, she even use to email me and ask me what I was having for lunch and I use to email her and ask her equally boring questions but it is in those mundane emails that our friendship grew to what it was.......

it is absolutely pouring here right now...has been for a few weeks. Our dam has gone from 39% capacity and is now near to 52% capacity. Mother Earth is indeed good!


9 comments:

Sheila said...

Reading back over those emails you shared with Daisy will help you.
I never keep emails, once they have been answered I delete them. I've often wondered if one day I will regret it. I hope not.
I'm so glad to hear you have had rain, and that the dam is being replenished. After the past couple of years, being so dry, it must be good to know things are inmproving.

amelia said...

I also, keep all my emails and have never regretted it... I don't think you will either.

melissa said...

Just wanted to say that I'm so sorry about your loss of Daisy. I know from reading you here, from time to time, that she was so dear to you.

Love,
Melissa

Blue the Spa Girl said...

Wow you kept all the emails. You are indeed a good friend.
That rain is so symbolic of the change you are going through. Rain is very soul cleansing. Sounds like a shift is happening for you.
Nothing boring about lunch.
xo

Tinker said...

I'm sorry I haven't been around, after we e-mailed back and forth that first day, my internet connection went out and it's only been working sporadically ever since - but I've been thinking about you and sending love and light your way. I'm glad you're getting some rain down there at last.

Love and ((HUGS))
XOXO

Gina E. said...

The rain is great, but I was worried about you getting washed down the mountain at one stage! The weather reports on t.v. were showing floods everywhere, with cliffs breaking away, etc.

Gemma said...

So glad you have saved her eMails. I'm sure you'll go back through them and find new meaning in her letters....She was very wise and I certainly value the things she told me as well. I also have saved
all her eMails.
xoxo
Sending love

mrsnesbitt said...

I keep all my e-mails.
Dx

Ninnie said...

I keep all of my emails from personal and also all of my blogger e-mails. So looks like you are in the norm. I am sure they will be great for you to re-read. Love, Hugs, and Blessings