"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Let children walk with Nature, let them see the beautiful blendings and communions of death and life, their joyous inseparable unity, as taught in woods and meadows, plains and mountains and streams of our blessed star, and they will learn that death is stingless indeed, and as beautiful as life.
John Muir

I find myself ok during the day - I keep busy. But as soon as those winter shadows begin to fall - my heart starts to ache. I wander aimlessly around the house, watching UK tv shows so that I can feel close to her. I feel such a lonliness in my soul. Very odd as I am married to the most wonderful man - understanding and compassionate but even he cannot take this pain away. slowly, slowly I am beginning to be able to visit other blogs and comment... it is like putting my toe in the water to feel if it is cold or not..testing the waters.... if there is any sign of Daisy's name - I quickly click off the blog.
if I don't see it, it's not real.
like I said, please don't feel like you have to comment ~ it is doing my soul good to journal my grieving process

6 comments:

Nicole said...

I believe that we all 'deal' with grief in our own ways. You will know what to do when the time is right. We will take our cue from you when you are ready.

xox

Ninnie said...

Sounds like you are getting there. It will take quite some time I am sure. Just keep doing the best you can. Love Hugs and Blessings

Tinker said...

Sending ((Hugs))XOXO

mrsnesbitt said...

Just popping by to say "Hello" always a comfy chair by the kettle.

Dxxxx

paris parfait said...

It's a process, dear Robyn. Sending lots of hugs. xo

Blue the Spa Girl said...

Robyn
Some people like to hop on the grieving bandwagon, but to me, you seem like you are one of the few (I won't name the others) who legitimately miss Daisy.
I won't post about her because I was not her close friend. I totally understand you avoiding those blogs that go on and on about it.
You are in enough pain from your loss, you do not need to suffer fools right now. The fools being people who THINK they have lost someone.
YOU have lost someone.
xoxo