"There's such a lot of different Annes in me. I sometimes think that is why I'm such a troublesome person. If I was just the one Anne it would be ever so much more comfortable, but then it wouldn't be half so interesting."

Thursday, February 8, 2007

the optometrist

yesterday I had my visit to the optometrist. I wear glasses for close work & reading. So off I went, plopped myself into the chair and he asked me if I worked on a computer. of course, my work is not on a computer - but I do spend a hell of alot of time on it....way too much time - enough time so that my house looks like a whirlwind just ripped through it. so what am I supposed to say? ~ I BLOG? yeah sure - and get that blank look of 'what the hell is a blog?'
no-one understands blogging unless they are a blogger themselves......so I held my tongue and told him I wasn't on the computer for long periods - I hope white lies like that don't send me to hell. Have you ever tried to explain to friends just what a blog is? or even admitted you have one?

so I blog. yes. and why?
well at first it started as a bit of fun - describing my day as I went about my daily routine. But I could only tell so many times that I clean my bathrooms on Mondays & flutter about the home in a haze of lavender. Sometimes, I went back to childhood memories and every once in awhile something from my heart. meeting a handful of women - getting excited when I 'met' someone....
then I started to journal and it seemed just as easy to put my thoughts down here - I type quicker than I write and my thoughts became discussions with others.
However, I am not really sure why I do blog - I know I just can't stop. Is it an addiction? Is it because I need to know that I what I think and write is actually interesting to someone else? I don't understand this phenomena called blogging - I run around taking photos of the mundane and put them on my blog - wondering if someone 'out there' will be interested enough to comment. I sit and wonder what the hell I will write about today . I get flashes of thoughts throughout my day and rush to my paper to write it down, a beginning of yet another post.
I think I have been blogging for nearly 3 years and in that time I have blogged more than one post per day. sad but true. Geez, I don't think I even took Christmas day off!
I look forward to words from wise women, to hugs from those who care, & support from those who know what I am going through. I look forward to a kindredship with women who are exactly like me. And yes, I look for acceptance.
I travel the world, reading of other peoples lives - sometimes something, someone says hits my heart & I think to myself - this is me! this is exactly how I feel, how I think.
I take what I read with me - thinking of something that was mentioned somewhere - I think of other bloggers throughout my day - I stress over someone not visiting. So it is part of my life now. so where do I go from here? I have absolutely no idea

27 comments:

Naturegirl said...

Where do you go from here just keep blogging what's in your heart. I also less than a year ago did NOT know the word blog..now look what I've discovered a community of caring sharing kindreds spirits who inspire
me in their own individual way!..every visit a new discovery..so thank you for all that yOu share.
*BTW today I recieved my ~gift from your sea!~Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Lets see I guess we just keep on visiting around the world with each other. I know that my life has been enriched in so many ways since meeting all of you girls. Love, Hugs, and Blessings

amelia said...

I don't have a blg but I just LOVE reading others, especially yours because it's written straight from the heart!
I also get to read about tomorrow, today!!!

Pam Aries said...

Ha! your post today struck a big chord with me! I am trying to cut back somewhat on the time I spend on the PC. We'll see if my plan works.. It is just that it is so cool to talk to people and see what they are doing all ove the place! Where ever you go...there you are!

paris parfait said...

Blogging is a bit addictive - it's changed all our lives and made communication far easier than ever before. But the optometrist probably asked you about the computer because once I worked on a software development project and every single person on the project spent so much time at the computer, focusing on detail that by project's end they all wore glasses! Back to the blogging bit, meeting you and other wonderful people is such a bonus. xo

Tinker said...

Yes, it is hard explaining the blog world to other's outside it (I ried for awhile, now I figure they either get it or they don't). I just commented on Pam's blog a bit ago about blogging as an addiction - I admit, I'm hooked on blogging! I probably should cut back some of the time spent on the computer myself. But looking on the bright side, at least it's safer than many other addictions, lol. And best of all, it's enabled me to meet so many wonderful people around the world that I might never have met otherwise - like you! XO

Jana B said...

I SO feel your pain... I don't even use the word "blog" to people in my day to day life much anymore... they just look at me funny.

When I have a wise thought, it is immediately followed by "Oh, wow, I should blog that!" LOL And a few nights ago, I even blogged in my SLEEP!!!!! Yeah, seriously, and it was a really good post too! It'd probably offend everyone I know... but fun never-the-less!

I'm really glad I found blogging... the bonding, the awesome people (like you) that I've gotten to know... it's great! i wonder if, in about 10 years, you'll find BA groups... Blogaholics Annonymous?

KaiBlue said...

I keep a written, picture, blog journal. If I write something I need to think about here, I print it and glue it in my journal..
Blogs are cheap therapy and an interesting way to meet nice folks..
(like me!! lol)
Just be happy and enjoy life Robyn, thats really all your soul needs..
oh and a little Ocean air..
PEace, Kai.

Sheila said...

If anyone read this, it is because blogging is a part of their life. Like eating and sleeping and housework, and our outside employment if we have any.
But like those things, not every post has to be a masterpiece, or a gourmet meal. Sometimes the mundane is what unites us.Especially from honest people like you who don't relate every event of their life like it is a Martha Stewart episode. You will evolve as you have evolved from the first time you posted, as you change so will your interests, opinions and readers.
I will always be here..I need the fresh air..
xxoo

Carole Burant said...

A year ago I had no idea what a blog was...now look at me! lol I love blogging...I love the people I've met through it...I love the way we share our ups and downs...our thoughts, our ideas, etc. How can you ever give that up once you discover it?? Hugs xox

Suzy said...

Miss R -- you make me laugh! And then you make me think.

I learned about blogs about 18 months ago in a library course -- I even had to set one up as an assignment -- but really I'm just a novice this bright and shining new year ... and I love it! My husband says he's a blogging widower, boo hoo. I find it a weird and wonderful world, like instant pen pals. And it's fun because I love to write, I love to connect with people, and I too find it easier to get my thoughts down on paper when I'm typing.

Is it an addiction? I don't know. It is kind of a time vaccuum, in that 2 hours will pass in the blink of an eye. Is that what happens in opium dens?

I like visiting your blog and so many others! This is a pretty neat group of people. (I haven't seen the dark side of blogging, but I'm sure it's out there too.)

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Suzy said...

One more thing -- I think it's pretty cool that you blog in MY future. That is, I'm reading a blog dated tomorrow, today. You're magic!

gma said...

Blogging has enriched my life...and it keeps me creating. There are so many fun swaps and great women all over the world. Your blog is one of my fav's...love coming here...You are real!!!!I feel a connection with you on a soulful level....xo

Anonymous said...

Blogging is a very important part of my life now also. I am very proud of all my fellow bloggers. They have offered me support when no one else came to my aid. I know just what you mean about people not getting IT but then I think of all the fun they are missing. So sad for them.

Sorry but I haven't received my shell yet...still on the lookout.

Take care,
Hugs,
Connie

Annie Jeffries said...

Your heart is wide open Robyn. We love that about you. Big bear hug for you. Annie

Shell said...

I'm having the opposite problem at the moment - I am finding it difficult to blog, and posts are only coming sporadically. Though I still spend a ridiculous amount of time reading others blogs! I wouldn't stress too much about your blogging addiction Ms R - unless, of course, you feel that it is inhibiting your life in some way?

A bird in the hand said...

It's very much like visiting for me. Making friends, visiting them, chatting, sharing photos and stories...

Keep on blogging, luv.

xoxo

Anonymous said...

Do you know... I feel quite honoured to have been apart of your blogging life for the past two years now! Sort of like I had front row tickets to the Ms*R show... a once in a lifetime opportunity. I highly recommend this 'show' to everyone lol. It's been a blast... a rollercoaster... but a real hoot! Love you, Nic xox.

Suzie Q said...

Wow, what a very relevant post, Robyn! And I, too, find it fascinating that you are blogging from my future!
I am ridiculously addicted to blogging and less than a year ago I thought blogging was a rude word! ;) It's very difficult to explain to anyone who doesn't blog themselves, but I wouldn't have missed this experience for the world.
It has been a wonderfully positive experience for me so far, and as Kai says, it's cheap therapy! :) With the added bonus of meeting so many like-minded people, like you!
Keep on keeping on, please. I love reading what you have to say :)

Laurie said...

I love blogging, and at this point in my life I can't imagine not doing it. I have met true friends here from all over the world, women I would hav never gotten to know except through blogging.
My biggest worry now is that blogger will start charging some ridiculous fee ~
But now Robyn, I hope you will keep blogging you are a highlight of my day ~ love and hugs...

Lila Rostenberg said...
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Lila Rostenberg said...

I had to delete my last comment because of a link that didn't work...
I like blogging as a way to make an on-line "scrap-book"! One that doesn't have to be stored or dusted.
It is wonderful to have companoinship with other creative people...the studio can be a little lonely sometimes...

ACey said...

I started blogging because I'm a terrible correspondent with close friends all over the globe. Keeping a blog, with that audience in mind, helps me share what's important to me and how I'm spending my time. Becoming part of the blogosphere community is something that happened after the fact. I love seeing what other people are doing creatively, what they are experiencing spiritually, and what they are thinking about that matters most to them.

I don't stress over comments because the people I know who read along are all deeply private people. I wouldn't expect them to show themselves beyond email but now a few more people visit - folks from the blogging world who are used to commenting. My validation/wanting people to like me issues get channeled really strongly into my "serious" writing and I'm grateful those motivations haven't carried over to the blogging world. But I am a BASKET CASE under other types of conditions so I get why it matters so much to you. I occasionally stress over my site meter because it's how I keep track of friends that are as bad at corresponding as I am - I don't care how many people are reading so much as I notice particular ISPs/locations.

I think we all have plenty of input that doesn't really resonate with our souls or spirits. We have to 'deal" with situations and people that leave us starving for something more nourishing and love-ly. The blogging community can provide that for its members and it does seem that you've found a special corner of things where that's very true more often than it's not.

Sherri Williams said...

I feel like you, I visit all over the world reading of other places in our blogosphere. I love it. I take what I read with me and I talk of my blog friends often. Often enough that my children say, "Is that the one in Australia or Michigan?" Too funny. You keep right on blogging for you and for all your blog friends. Have a wonderful day.

Janet said...

How funny. I just wrote today about my blog and my fears about it. It's a bit like either belonging to the "in" crowd or not, and more likely I don't.

couragetocreatewriteandlove said...

Beautiful post!!! I am printing it and keeping it close to me forever.